Personal Bits and Bobs

 another daily log a bit after well, the last one i suppose. 
next week im going camping so i wont be online at all. been biking twice this week. very fun. there is a local trail that me and my partner want to do together. 
i also had a job interview today and it was ok. i think i did ok with how i answered? ill know either tomorrow or by the start of next week if i got the job. im not sure i want it. as much as i want a job, its in an area that isnt really located near me, as well as also just not really a place that i can move down south. 
otherwise things have been ok. i feel neutral. having ups and downs all the time and thats ok. 
i have been trying to keep myself busy. reading, taking walks, and keeping up with language practice n such. currently i am reading magpie murders, its been ok so far, enjoying it. just finished a chapter at a cliffhanger.

 yeah posting again haha. currently about to do some language lessons, debating on if i want to do french or japanese. maybe i will do both who knows. 

otherwise having some tea today, feeding my sourdough and raked my front yard for all the dirt that gets up on it during the winter. want my moss yard to grow good this year. 

my plans today consits mainly of just drinking tea and working on my language lessons and drink my little tea. maybe go out and do some biking around town later on. 
tomorrow is a holiday, so maybe i will do some prep for that. giving to artemis so ill need to get my stuff together for my alter decorations. 

Also applying to a job my friend is gonna recommend me for, so i have to write out a cover letter and update my resume for that as well :) 

 alright been a bit since i made any updates. and im sorry abourt that. currently i just finished college as of last week so i was super focused and busy on that. now to do some housekeeping. currently now that i am out of college, ive been looking for jobs. so far not really a lot but ive been applying to most stuff i can find that is entry level. 
i bleached my hair once again, went back to blond. i also have been trying to keep fit and active by doing stuff daily. such as walking or using my eliptical. today it was the eliptical. 
today was mostly uneventful. went out to get some bloodwork done, then went to the thrift and just kinda milled about, found a neat gps for ten dollars so thats good. set it up too. also got a neat keyboard for my work computer, if only i had work and motivation to use it. 

been thinking a lot about what i want to do if i dont have a job by next month, might go off and live in the woods for a bit by myself. I have the land and cabin already i would just need to do some prepping of materials to bring. might start working on this seriously. bring my chickens with me too maybe, unsure i dont really eat eggs. 
i have of course my creature comforts at home, but i can make due without most of them anyways. i think one of the things that stops me from doing this is my partner. who still lives in town. it may be too much for him for me to just walk into the woods and not return til a month, tho i could just drive and see him at some points. but it would defeat the purpose if i can go back into town any time i wanted.

i think if i was to do this seriously i would be able to. just need to prepare the right things to live there for a month. in my head ive been calling it my month long exile (self imposed). might be good for my head just to be able to focus on my basic needs and not things that are in modern life. at most i would have to come in for supplies or possibly medications. 
the more i plan and think the more this plan seems like it could work. just unsure if i would be able to commit myself to something like that. thats the main issue. 
i just want to avoid becoming a drag or a neet or anything. cause i dont really have any reasons to go outside these days, i usually went outside for college reasons. now there really isnt much a point to leave my house besides maybe running errands. even then i could get other people to run my errands, i dont have money to spend on myself any more. 

if i am lucky next month i may have a job. may is when most of the stuff i applied to closes and jobs start running. so if i have no work by may, i really will have nothing to do besides rot away in my house. i always figured college would allow me to get work easier, or at least open doorways for me to do so. so far it really hassn't which kinda sucks. 
i havent been picky with jobs incase anyone is curious. i have been applying to meanial labour, as well as high school level jobs. its mostly trying to get work in my town that sucks. its dying and there isnt anyone hiring much these days. 
my best hope right now is a dishwashing job i applied to a couple days ago, before that my hopes was on a yard worker for a marina, and before that it was some other job i don't remember, something like a wildlife tech. 
regardless, i just want a job at this point. 

on a lighter note, most of everything else has been ok. been reading a bit, playing some games. getting back into animal crossing city folk. i also picked up some new shows to watch on netflix so i've been doing that when i have free time (which is most of the time anyways). 
im thinking of trying to read outside a bit more, or going to the library to read so that way i have an excuse to leave the house. my library is in walking distance which is good because i dont need to use or waste gas driving somewhere. 
honestly i need hobbies that make me do stuff that takes up large chunks of time, that are also not expesive. so far its just been reading, and walking. i want to take up gardening if i dont get a job i guess. 
told my parents i'd help them make theirs since they are old now and have a hard time bending down to dig at stuff. they said they'd be willing to pay me so at least its a small source of income. i can sell my eggs too. maybe i should get a rooster if i move out to the woodlot. sell my eggs to people later. 

honestly what do people do when they have too much free time? what do i do as the "unemployed friend" like? how do people fill their days. 

 been thinking a lot about my life and i can say i am def in a better place then a couple years ago. little to no issues mentally just the occasionall stressor. i think perhaps my medications are working. 
soon i go for my driving test, hoping i pass that because i would like to get it done and over with soon in time for work things. speaking of work. still hoping for a job at some point, hoping to hear back from someone at some point. really banking on a few specific job places really ngl. 

• write this post
• language lesson
• portfolio work
• fix pictures on blog posts

otherwise, i spent most of the weekend doing note catchup, and being with my partner. today was mostly me doing note catchup. spent like three hours on it, my law class has long presentations unfort. 
been having tea in the mornings, which i like to ritual of making. also been for the most part on top of all my homework. finished a big paper on the 28th and now i have only a few minor papers to finish and work on. 

now that i finished my notes i might read a little after practicing some driving again. i do plan to call my partner and probably watch him play games. might go thrifting? not sure been thinking a lot about how i live my life and what i want to do with it at some point. 
been thinking about the stuff i own and how i live my life and if it is the life i want to continue with. i do, but i want to make changes so i can feel like i am enjoying it more.

otherwise the only birds ive seen is a pigeon, waiting for geese to be back. seen a cat tho which was kinda crazy. sorry weekend posts are gonna be long because i have so much time on my hands. 

i think in order to make my tasks more productive i want to organize how and the times i do stuff. so like 20 mins for x chore and stuff like that. feels like maybe it will be more productive to myself and actually be able to start working on tasks and stuff. if only i did this in high school and not at the end of colllege. 

speaking of college i am almost done, only a couple weeks left for me before its over. hoping to get a job after and work for a bit. find what i enjoy and maybe later go back to school and specialized in it. fish, seems the most likely rn, but im not putting other things i like off the table either. 

 im so tired of it all, i want stuff to be done, no more college im tired of the work. im tired of not knowing if ill even have a job in a couple months or not, if i will graduate or anything. 
i just want to sleep and not wake up.

overall im just so annoyed that i have to do work with people who kind of suck at it, and i keep getting put into situations with them where i have too. frankly. im tired of it and im tired of pretending that im ok with it. because its not. sorry your a bad student to work with. id much rather do it on my own but i dont have the time frankly. and not to mention, your formatting is horrendous. you lack communication both of you. 
simply put, id probably not work with you if i had the option to not. i find you have a hard time doing actual group work and communicating. you also are horrible at showing up on time im surprised you got accepted into university. 

 Daily log for today plus my list of stuff i need to do today. 
its 2025-03-21 and its friday which means im going to my bfs house! im not sure what we plan today besides playing some games together!
yesterday was the spring equinox, which was fun. i set up a small and quick alter for it  
i think today is to mostly to be chill. not sure whats for lunch, and im currently writing this in class LOL just gave a presentation on sora and virgina rails and migration tracking. in the same class i have a quiz later in the day. 
my main goal is to study for that quiz, and then work on some homework bits. 

• work on business plan
• study for quiz 2
• have lunch
• charge laptop
• co-op work 
• portfolio or research article 

today the weather is supr nice and its going to be 5C as the high today, tomorrow might be a little bit colder so,,,, hopefully if i do anything outside, it will be today.
im also thinking of going to the gym but depends on my mood. im kinda tired and need to focus on homework due this week/next week etc. 

 alright heres a late one writing from my night class LOL its 2025-03-19 and so far today i havent done much besides hangout at my bfs house and laze about the day. yesterday tho i fed some birds which was fun. 
today after my classes i plan to go home and fix up a pair of jeans and my workout sweats. maybe fill up bird feeders if they're empty. 
otherwise its more homework and study and daily chores taking care of myself. 

also ive been reading a new book ! finished "my year of meats" and im now reading "the art of not thinking" which im hyped to read and hopefully it will be a shorter read compared to some of the other stuff i have planned for this year LOL.

 today is 2025/03/17
and so far i have been pretty chill. watched some tv and read this morning before class. afterwords ive been doing some work and reading up on some articles for a class. right now im waiting to start a driving lesson before going home, in which then im gonna probably do some more work on smth else and then going to set up and fix one of my bird feeders. otherwise my day is just mostly reserved for doing work and stuff before tuesday 

been getting into tea again. which is nice cause i have a huge collection of tea still LOL 
right now im drinking davids tea, hot chocolate flavour with strawberry chocolate creamer (i dont use sugar) 
otherwise my day has been good. 
driving lesson my teacher said im doing good, just that i need to do some practice n whatnot. 

i started this blog when i felt really depressed and lonely for a bit, but ngl everything recent has been pretty pleasing and happy for myself. 
i sure feel crushed with homework and note catchup and whatnot, however the rest of my life has been nice and chill and nice.

• read reasearch article 
• have lunch and tea
• set up bird feeders
• id bird for my mum
• write up some more essay/co-op work

i hope all my friends are having good days today 

 minor update for the weekend. 
i finally did some chores this morning which was laundyr, showering etc kinda stuff. so that was a nice pep-up for this morning.
its also going to be warm today ! 14c with a nice morning rain as well. so maybe if i get some work done i can go outside and have some time in the sun. wish the snow was gone tho would make it easier to be outside a little. 
i think today i have minor work to do, an assignments regarding tracks, and then i need to work on my essay. i have been putting it off and belh, i just dont want to write it. but its going to either make or break my diploma (i just need to finish a co-op to graduate) so i probably will try to get some done today. 

usually i sleep over at my bfs house on friday night, but i couldnt this week cause he was sick. which is ok, but i dont deal well with sick people or getting sick. so i think ill proabably see him tuesday night and then friday night this upcoming week. 

im hoping that i can get most of this stuff all done today before dusk/afternoon cause i wanna go out for a walk. i really wish the snow was gone tho. otherwise my only plans are chores, do work, and probably read and take a walk later. 

i think i will be going out to the store, i wanna paint my nails again LOL and i lost my black polish, and i tried brown but it was too light for my taste. i think i might go and get some other stuff but im not sure, feeling like getting a cd or a new book. cd would be fun and preferred but bleh means i have to make more then one stop to a place.

ok update at 12.39 today, finished the longest powerpoint of my life, its 25 slides LOL but now that im done, im going to eat lunch and then probably go out. afterwards ill be coming home and then doing some more work later on. i wanna get my co-op done, as well as get some assignments done for this upcoming friday (the 21st). 
honestly i just put away some stuff, and idk what i even want to eat ugh. im thinking a sandwhich maybe? ill get back here once i figure out what i chose to eat.
OK update, my lunch is a sandwich, grapes and half a cookies n cream bar!

i think once i take a break from being at my computer i can probably focus on my co-op report. i chose to write about human trash habits and why they are the way they are. but also simply because it relates to what i did for a job (picking up trash and taking it out after events etc) so its both a topic i care about plus a topic relating to the work i did (which is smth i needed to be able to write it to start with). 

i hope no one minds how long this post is LOL i just chose to make a long weekend post/update over the course of today.